17 July, Friday


after lessons, i went straight t sembawang t meet baby, haroy and qiang. qiang treated me t mochi! cause he owed me one. haha. thn we headed t jurong east for swimming (: the saddest thing was that the lifeguard said that i had t take off my shirt. i did not want, cause i dont wanna get sunburnt. somemore the water made my eyes damn itchy. infection :/ in the end i went into the water for 5 minutes only. thn i came up -.- lucky gt this girl, isabella, was there t accompany me. she's friendly (:

had dinner at nearby's coffeeshop. thn huat came t fetch us. he drove us t west coast! haha im elated lah, cause i wanted t rollerblade. but there aint any rental shop there -.- baby and i thn went t take a stroll. sweet sweet :D

at night, baby, qiang ym and i went t yishun OCC. i watched them play number ball (:
it was a tiring and boring day. im so nt used t not having my contacts on ):


18th July, Saturday


baby came over my house in the afternoon. initially we were very sweet. then something happened. it really struck me badly and i felt damn fucking hurt :/ i then went t meet esk and bel. just couldnt hold back my tears.

baby, im really sorry t make you sad and hurt you these few days. i swear i dont mean it. i really hope we can last long. i dont wanna leave you. im sorry that im very rash at times, thanks for understanding me and insisting that we should settle everything. if not, i guess ..........
i must admit our characters are totally different, but miraculously, we can click very very well. i feel that only you can control me, i will only listen t you, i will only feel helpless cause of you. everything is 'ONLY BECAUSE OF YOU'
baby, i love you. trust me ok (:

everything's fine now! but we couldnt make it for dinner at sakura ): baby and i then headed t kovan and had dinner at thai express. baby treated me! :D thn we met eileen. supposedly we wanted t go t rebel but in the end nvr. only baby went there, with ym they all (:
dearest and i went back t hougang's macs. htht :DDDDDDDD thrashed a lot of things out. dearest im so glad that you're always there for me when i need you. i really need you t scold me and wake me up. i really should cherish my baby. i love both of you ttm (: (: (:


TODAY

went t ahma's house in the afternoon. a lot of my aunts, uncles and cousins came over. it was damn lively over there. im sure ahma would be very glad if she was around. today was a happy day. cause early in the morning, i greeted baby gd morning, told him i miss him. and on the bus, i gave up my seat t an old man. idk why but im so high. then at ahma house, we played blackjack and i won 40bucks! HOHOHO :D
but the sad thing is that i couldnt get t meet baby today ):

BABY I MISS YOU